Through the ink

Life is not a bed of roses, you are going to get hurt, betrayed, heartbroken, taking for granted, hated, misunderstood, you going to fail, lose, cry and angry.
Instead of burying all this negative energy inside you, take it and turn it into something positive.

The dream

we all grew up scared and broken
never felt whole unless we together
never felt this vulnerable
never felt this weak
never felt this lost  
This is not how it was supposed to be

cos i was always one piece of the puzzle
one part of the dream
without each other the four of us could never be complete
the dream was never to be rich  
the dream was never to be famous
the dream was to be happy

          Banji coker

sell out

My soul is on some sell out shit

about this girl that I came to meet

in a world of hate, darkness and sadness

in a world full of thorns, a flower grew and bloomed

at first I couldn't trust it

but I couldn't stop myself from wanting it

you are the light in the dark

the only colourful thing in this colourless world

and you might not be good for my health

but I better die by love than to die by hate

am not a firm believer of valentines day

because I thing you deserve your own holiday- Banji Coker

true friendships

        we meet new people everyday, but at the end of the day how many of them actually stay, or care for you. its really not how cool a person is or how much fun you have when the person is around, its all about what the person does when you are down.
          true friend might be harsh when they see you taking a path that they think is dangerous for you, they might not understand why, but instead of encouraging you and watch you get hurt , they try to stop you . and sometimes they might be wrong, but you know all they are doing its out of love.
          am writing about friendship today because yesterday I went out with my best friends, we have been apart for about a year, and they just made me realize how important I am and how happy I can be. in true friendship you don't have to give or be anything to be loved all you have to be is yourself

what girls want?

          
  girls have confused expectations of what they want in guys , they want a guy who will respect, love , understand and make them feel beautiful.. well you find a girl you like , you want to give her all this things and make her feel like the only girl in the world. NEWS FLASH!!!!!! she will ignore you and jump to the guy that will do the opposite of what you have planned for her( the guy does not give a fuck about her)

            then you start wondering what do girls want do they want guys to be bad, but then you hear them complain and cry of how insensitive and uncaring guys are ( hello, I totally sensitive to your feelings), and if you are really unlucky , they will tell you "why cant guys be more like you" ( you are totally fucked) or they tell you " you are my best friend and you are really sweet"( just jump in a river).

             I talked to a girl to ask why girls prefer bad guys to the good ones she said "good guys are boring, they are simply not challenging" but what you girls don't know is that we are pretty fun but we will not be assholes to look cool in front of you and if you cant see or understand that you deserve all the pain and heart breaks that comes your way.

 

selfish

      selfish

(of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for other people; concerned chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure.

           that's what they say about you when you are not doing anything for anyone but yourself, now am wondering if am supposed to live my life to please people, and the sad part is that they don't give a fuck about you, they wont even do the same for you.

            when you do nice things for them no one makes any noise, but the time you decide to treat yourself nice for once 'you are the devil' its wrong to think about yourself , you must put others before yourself, be selfless.......but the question is who puts me first???? if I don't put myself first who will??? . remember its love your neighbour as yourself not more than your elf.

she loves me or she loves me not

                      This feeling sucks!!!!! like for real it does , come on!! i already expressed how i feel about you and you cant even give me an answer not even a no!!!!, then you say yes, no , maybe . leaving me stuck, not sure if i should move on with my life or should still keep my hopes up on you.
                       This is prison , this is torture( come on) , you say you are confused you are not sure of what you are feeling but do you wonder how i feel, you just told me you am an option but you are still looking for other choices when i told you all i want is you.
                        love is not complicated i just dont know why people make it so!!!!!!!!

this thing called love

                        this shit can be scary, you cant understand why this person all of a sudden means everything to you,  they are very important to you. then your defence mechanism sets in cos you don't want to feel vulnerable and you scared that this one person has all access to your heart and can do whatever they want with it
                          the next stage, you try to deny all the signs that you are in love, you lie to your self, you lie to your friends . when you see its not working you try to convince yourself its just infatuation. then you try to change the topic trying to focus on other aspect of your life other than her, that still doesn't work she always finds a way to creep into your mind
                           now after the fighting and torture with your feeling, you finally agree you are in love with this girl, you start thinking about your lives together , then what your friends will think about it , now it dawns on you what if she doesn't feel the same (damn)....... after all the trouble.

friends to lovers

                         there is this girl you have your eyes on, she is different from the other girls with her its never about the physical attraction. then you try not to mess it up, you are there for her , she confides in you , you care for her and its obvious she cares for you too. but then you end up in the friend zone... lol
                      still you don't care you are in the friend zone (at first) you just love the fact that you are in her life . you guys get so close you are inseparable . then the thought comes into your head , it would be better if we are more than just friends . you walk up to her and told her how you feel, she said no that she does not want to ruin the relationship you both have(ouch). and cos your feelings are intense you stay friend hoping her mind would change
                     after days and months of waiting and hoping and sometimes trying to get over her she comes and tell you she loves you and your heart skips a beat at that very moment the world stops and everything makes sense and is perfect. everything you wanted is finally here . now the question is what next, you both afraid of the new adventure. the thing is you should take it slow and enjoy every step of the way