this thing called love

                        this shit can be scary, you cant understand why this person all of a sudden means everything to you,  they are very important to you. then your defence mechanism sets in cos you don't want to feel vulnerable and you scared that this one person has all access to your heart and can do whatever they want with it
                          the next stage, you try to deny all the signs that you are in love, you lie to your self, you lie to your friends . when you see its not working you try to convince yourself its just infatuation. then you try to change the topic trying to focus on other aspect of your life other than her, that still doesn't work she always finds a way to creep into your mind
                           now after the fighting and torture with your feeling, you finally agree you are in love with this girl, you start thinking about your lives together , then what your friends will think about it , now it dawns on you what if she doesn't feel the same (damn)....... after all the trouble.