Good and evil

mothers love

Everybody says that children are gifts from god
but mothers, god mothers are a blessing
for someone to be willing t lay down her life for you the first they she met you
for someone to share her survival with you
she accepted the pain you caused her with a smile
with tears in her eyes she called you beautiful
you didn't have to do anything
try to be anybody
try to impress anyone to get this kind of love
you where loved even when you couldn't love back
someone who wold gladly stay back stage just to watch you shine
someone who will do anything  just to see you smile
someone who will always and forever have your back no matter what
god I love my mother  - Banji coker

music is my life
poetry is my wife
nature is my friend
art is my alibi
and fame is my princess
this are my family and family
you say this things are abstract
what about people? human friends?
I replied and said " I don't know what that means"
people don't get me
they only around when they need you
and if you have nothing to offer, then you would be left alone
my so called abstract thoughts are my family
they where there when I was born and they are going to be there when I die- Banji coker

lost

            we all wanna be loved , really we do, we want to belong, we want to feel important , we want to matter , if not to everyone but to someone, we want someone to care , we want to be missed , most of all like I said before we want to be loved.
            but there come a particular time you feel no one loves you, you are not good enough , you see the disappointment on your parents face , you get the rejection for the girl you cared about, nobody understand you and they don't even try to, its always easy for them to complain .
              but  there might be someone that gets you, but they are far far away, so it probably doesn't help much. but no matter what the harsh reality is, you got to love yourself, and if they cant accept you or love you , you have to do this yourself, and am not gonna lie to you, its gonna be tough and hard. you might get through it or you might not, just know this, nothing is wrong with you, it might just be that you are in the wrong place or the wrong lifetime or surrounded by the wrong people, but that does not mean you should  not be happy when you have the chance.

new year

             wow another year I didn't expect it to come this fast, there is something different about this year though, because every other year I always start them anxious and scared but  I kinda started this year depressed , why I don't really know, maybe because I did not have a phone to call my friends and loved ones to wish them a happy new year or maybe because last year was pretty cool and I kinda felt bad that its came to an end, and maybe cos I got my heart broken while preparing for the new year.
             now I have been told to have a to do list for this year. and here is mine
1. be happy
2. take a step closer to success (keep on working on my music and my education
3. have a meaningful impact on someone's life
              this year I think am gonna ride solo, I  will not get into any emotional drama , work more less play, and be nice to the people that care about me because at the end of the day they are all you go.
so happy new year and make this year a meaningful one .

man burnt 2days after christmas

              As we were driving along yaba , I saw his burnt body folded on the ground,(apparently he was running with the fire burning him). and it got me wondering why???? what did he do to deserve being burnt , some people suggested he stole something!!! and I was like what the fuck!!! just because he stole doesn't mean he should be burnt alive. what the hell did he even steal?? phone?? money?? cloth??? that deserved him being burnt.
            now we stay in our various homes talking about how evil and wicked boko haram, isis and the rest are. and we tend to forget that we are as wicked and evil as they are, because what will make you burn a fellow human being like you, the long and short is you are cold blooded and a monster.
           Nigeria has to understand that we are not the enemy, we have to stop killing ourselves. we are just simply hypocrites , how can we just look our brother in the eye and kill him with no hold back. we can not grow if we continue to kill ourselves. I guess killing that man was Nigeria's gift to his family

selfish

      selfish

(of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for other people; concerned chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure.

           that's what they say about you when you are not doing anything for anyone but yourself, now am wondering if am supposed to live my life to please people, and the sad part is that they don't give a fuck about you, they wont even do the same for you.

            when you do nice things for them no one makes any noise, but the time you decide to treat yourself nice for once 'you are the devil' its wrong to think about yourself , you must put others before yourself, be selfless.......but the question is who puts me first???? if I don't put myself first who will??? . remember its love your neighbour as yourself not more than your elf.