The horrible months

Okay here goes, the purpose of me starting this blog was to create a place where I can vent, so that's what I am going to do, I am not going to try to suger coat it I am not trying to put it into some kind of poem, so I'm just gonna come straight out and vent.

So here goes, the past two months have been horrible, the total worst, horrible things have been happening to me back to back, the universe isn't giving me a break. I feel jinxed.
First of, I saw my results and it was bad, my phone got spoilt followed by my laptop. Then me and my girlfriend started having communication problem and that was the most hurtful and biggest problem.

The problem was that I was constantly obsessed and bent on hearing how she feels about me, her telling me she loves me,  and I don't know why I felt that way. Maybe I just needed to feel loved that something in my life was going alright, someone would go through the trouble with me and let me know it was okay. But then again we were not communicating the way I really need for my emotional stability.

I kept  pestering her to tell me how she feels,  she wasn't even sure how she felt. So we broke up, I was pressuring her and she was scared . Long story short we chickened out and it really hurts
I feel like I just messed up the thing I wanted the most