Fear

 
 Fear is what holds my heart in bondage
It weakens my bones and cartilage
It has taking away my power to speak


It controls the air i breathe
Fear my captive i can't see
I'm not bound in chain or in a cage
But i know i'm not free
The people around are his instruments of pain
They try to destroy the last strand of self worth that remains
They say love conquers all
What if the one you love wants you to fall
With faith and the power of believing  i can do anything
But i seem not to be achieving
They say greatness is within me
But fear is the only thing stopping me from being me

                BANJI Coker

conversation with my phobias

I am scared
I am terrified by this fear
why am I afraid?
what am I afraid of?
I'm in a mental prison
I lie to everyone that I'm fine
that I'm okay
but every time I see it
my pupils dilate
my heart skips a beat
my world is blank
I feel vulnerable again
my strength is taking away
does this fear have a name?
does this fear have a face?
where did it come from?
what does it want from me?
and most importantly why am I scared of it?
this are questions that I don't have the answers
but people call it a beautiful thing
why does it treat me differently?
what did I do wrong?
why does it terrify me?
love?
the future?
myself?
or maybe you......






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