conversation with my phobias

I am scared
I am terrified by this fear
why am I afraid?
what am I afraid of?
I'm in a mental prison
I lie to everyone that I'm fine
that I'm okay
but every time I see it
my pupils dilate
my heart skips a beat
my world is blank
I feel vulnerable again
my strength is taking away
does this fear have a name?
does this fear have a face?
where did it come from?
what does it want from me?
and most importantly why am I scared of it?
this are questions that I don't have the answers
but people call it a beautiful thing
why does it treat me differently?
what did I do wrong?
why does it terrify me?
love?
the future?
myself?
or maybe you......






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