At a stand still

I'm here at a stand still
I'm in between pain and happiness.
I'm in love with the pain
But I long for happiness

I'm here at a stand still
With no idea of what to do
Happiness is just a step away
And Pain is right behind me

I'm here at a stand still
There are echoes of worry around
They scream out in unison
Telling me to move on

I'm here at a stand still
I'm scared of leaving everything behind
I don't have the strength to face the things  ahead .
But I'm right in the middle,  with all of my emotions dead

Banji Coker