who am i?

I am an heart breaker
I am broken hearted
I am a sinner
I am a believer
I am a messiah
I am here to save them with my words
they say that love is dead
so it is my mission to resurrect it from hell
I am determined to be a good person in this bad world, to spread love
but then I feel like I am looking for something that is not there
trying to help people that don't care
I am fighting a lost course
I feel like I am wasting my time
maybe there is no such thing as love
that love is just an idea I have in my head
but I refuse to believe that I have been living a lie
I am at war with my reality
I don't know what to believe
I just need someone to tell me its okay
who am I?
my name is naïve - Banji Coker

sell out

My soul is on some sell out shit

about this girl that I came to meet

in a world of hate, darkness and sadness

in a world full of thorns, a flower grew and bloomed

at first I couldn't trust it

but I couldn't stop myself from wanting it

you are the light in the dark

the only colourful thing in this colourless world

and you might not be good for my health

but I better die by love than to die by hate

am not a firm believer of valentines day

because I thing you deserve your own holiday- Banji Coker

why am i different

   

            I was born like everybody else
            But why am I different?
            soak in the same sun heat as everyone else
            but why do I feel different?
            live in the same environment as everyone else
            but why do I think differently?
            in the same school as everybody
            why do I think differently?
            they say that the stars shine bright at night
            but why is it that anytime I look up, the stars lights are dim?
            they say the sky is blue, but all I see is grey
            maybe I was just born at the wrong place, the wrong time and among the wrong people
            because no matter how hard I try, I don't seem to fit in - Banji Coker

what they call us

      We are called the sadist, the hopeless romantics, the depressed , the loners
       they look at us though we know nothing,
       we don't know how to have fun
       we are too emotional
       but we smile the brightest
       we laugh the hardest
      we try to make everyone around us happy
     but we are taken for granted .
      we pity them
      because they are blinded to what the world really is
    A place where someone else pain is another's happiness
    A place where the word love as lost its importance and meaning
    we spend our time wondering why?
    And we try and feel we can change the world by spreading love to one person at a time
    why are we sad and depressed you say?
    its because we have made it our lives mission to make others feel loved
   but at the end of the day no one loves us- Banji coker