what do i deserve

I am scared
I am confused
I am perplexed
I seriously don't know what to do
where to go
I am scared of the next step
that defining moment
the moment that is gonna change my life forever
the fact is that I have to move on without you
not that I need you to achieve my dreams
but you were once the source of my inspiration
its sad that I have to let all that go now
but its okay
sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be happy, or get my dreams come true
I always feel there is someone better that deserves my spot
I feel like I am not good enough
but then do I deserve to be miserable and unhappy?
are there not more wicked and evil people that deserve that spot?-Banji  coker