God of depression

There is something about staring at the mirror
Something about being given the opportunity to be true to yourself
Or a chance at changing who you are
A chance to practice that laugh
A chance to perfect that smile
Yunno you have to practice that role
They have to believe that you're okay
Life is a movie
And this is your script
Cos most days I feel numb
I get this non feeling
I feel like I am sinking
And that I'm the ship
And the ocean is within me
And I know some I tried to give it a name
Describe this feeling
Some has said it's my fault
And blamed this whole thing on me
But if I could describe this
And you would listen to me
Depression is as big has God
Or they might be the same thing
Cos depression has no beginning and no end
It demands to be worshiped
It is a jealous God
It is all encompassing
It becomes your everything
It own you
And everything you do it's to it's glory
Your mind is its temple
And your emotions is it's Bible
Depression is bigger than the universe
It's like two universe combined
And somehow those two universe of darkness and void found a way to fit inside you
You cluelessly trying to find your way out of it
Trying to escape your own skin
But they say there is always a way out of it
A way out of this deep abyss
And if truly there is
I hope every one feeling this way finds a way out one day

Banji Coker

Shooting star

I am here hoping for a shooting star
But the sky is just blank
No moon
No stars
Just dark clouds
The irony of my life
I am compelled to go for a walk
Only to find a star
And a sickle moon
Well seated in the middle of God big sky
Could this be a sign?
Could this be a life lesson?
Cos I don't still understand the pain I feel inside

Banji Coker