Deep sea

He took a dive into her deep sea
And what a wonderful feeling it was to be sinking
As the water filled his lungs
He could finally breathe, making him realise this is what it's like to live

Banji Coker 

Broke my heart

I found myself at the edge of the cliff.
Faced with the dilemma of moving forward
I have to jump so I can fly.
I have to jump but what if I fall?
I decided to take the leap
I decided to go for it
And oh bless my luck I'm falling
I broke my heart by trying

Banji Coker 

Afraid to let go

What about all we've been through
What about everything we've built
What about the struggles and pain
What about everything we've made
It can't end like this
This wasn't the dream
We were meant to be more
We were meant for love
But trying to save this is a suicide mission
We're were each others parasites
It's scary cos we don't know what the world holds
We both afraid to let go

Banji Coker

Girl in the tight dress

There she is
The spotlight, her butler
She's the pride of the city
The joy of the nation
She has the admiration of the locals
She has the hearts of the royals
She's  all you wish for
She's all you desire
But it's not real
It's just a camouflage
To cover what's inside
To hide who she really is
Cos she's not a princess
She's just the girl in the tight dress

Banji Coker

Cold yet still burning

Down at rock bottom
Is where I lay
Shattered and beaten down
By the world of yesterday
I've been stuck in darkness
With no help from that sun ray
My bones are heavy and my muscles are weak
It's cold outside but my soul won't shink
Cos my spirit a fire burning within
I know I will survive, I know I will live

Banji Coker 

Warm and wild

Well sometimes I feel lost
Sometimes I feel alone
Sometimes I feel out of place
Sometimes I get depressed
Well I don't know it's just the way I am
It's just the way I come up with this words
It's just the way I write
It's just the way I find peace
I was born a loner
I was created to get like this
Just know I never doubted your love for me
I'm just a writer with a warm heart and a wild imagination

Banji Coker 

Queen without a crown

She walked into the room
With her denim jeans and pop sole shoes
She became the envy of all the girls
Getting the admiration of all the boys
But scared and naive was she
Her beauty was so overwhelming that no one could see
The world was crumbling down on her
But she always walked around with a smile
She had no hope for  tomorrow
She had no hope for a future 
But here today she's a queen without a crown
And she's gonna enjoy it for a while

Banji Coker 

Dazzled in December

It's been a long run
With Lots of twist and turns
With Lots of pain and joy
With Lots of hate and love
It's been a long road to December
It's been a far cry to how it started
It's been an ocean of memories
We've come down to the last lap
We've come down to the big finish
I hope this will all be worth it
I hope it would be something to remember
I hope this will be the turning point
Where we say goodbye to regrets
Where we say welcome to greatness
I hope that after all is said and done
We'll look back and say we dazzled in December

Banji Coker 

My book is on amazon 🙈

Guys my book October Feelings is on amazon for pre-order is going to be released on the 25th of December... I hope you guys love it.
Here are the links to pre-order my book

https://www.amazon.com/October-Feelings-Banji-Coker-ebook/dp/B01MXFII2R


https://www.amazon.ca/October-Feelings-Banji-Coker-ebook/dp/B01MXFII2R

Sinking moon

It's a beautiful day

The sun comes out shining as bright as it can
Giving you the reassurance that everything is going to be alright
Everything is going to work out
Then you find yourself in the afternoon
The sun becomes harsh
It chases the sweat out of your pores
You begin to wonder
You thought you both were friends
How could he treat you like this
Now all you are left with is a dark sky
And a sinking moon

Banji Coker

Cascade

Is it something you did?
Is it something you said?
That has brought us to this
That has created this feeling
I can't remember who I used to be
I've let gone the pain from within
You generate the sweetest tingling
Letting down cascades on my face
Creating mixed impression
Mirage of pain on the outside
But abundance of joy deep within
Pain caused because I never knew I could be this happy
Joy cos it's finally happening to me

Banji Coker 

Gamble

Certainty is something that I never reach
Something I never feel
Something I never witnessed
Something that never occurs
I'm always at a state of confusion
always in a state of fear
My Mind runs towards different possibilities
My heart  remains at a stand still
They sometimes you have to go with your guts
Sometimes you have to believe
Sometimes you got to have a little fate
Sometimes all you need is the gamble

Banji Coker 

Branded skin

Why?
Why does this happen?
Why when I'm happy?
Why when everything feels right?
Why?
Why me?
Everywhere I go
Everything I do
It raises it head
It's all up in my business
It's like it's on my skin
It just won't let me be

Banji Coker

Leave your comments about the things that makes life hard, that just won't let you be. It might help to share

Cemetery secret

I realise that I'm not as good as they think
I'm not as perfect as they assume
I'm not the honest person they choose to believe
I'm not the saint they feel I am
I'm a total mess
I harbour psychedelic thoughts
I Dwell with melancholic feelings
There's a evil side to me
There's is a selfish side to what you see
The devil resides within
But I will try my best to conceal it
I will make sure no one notices it
I'm going to take this side to my grave
This side,
my cemetery secret

Banji Coker 

Lost in the flames

Always trying to do the right thing
Always trying to be a good person
But all my efforts are laid to waste
All my works are taken for granted
Desperately trying to get away from my demons
Desperately wishing to be among the angels
Trying to leave the anger behind
Trying to let go of the hate
But this world wouldn't let me be
It's bent on sabotaging my progress
It has me trapped in hell
It has me lost in the flames

Banji Coker 

Whispers and greetings

Are you sure you can do this?
Are you sure you are good enough?
Are you sure you are ready?
Are you sure you up to the task?
Whispers that hit my ears
Sending shivers down my spine
Causing my feet to tremble
Causing me to doubt
The fear
The failure
All make way to my mind
Shaking my soul
Grieving my spirit
They left their greetings
 Destroying my self esteem

Banji Coker 

Champagne

Somehow I find myself in the clouds
Surrounded by all the things I've ever wanted
This is what keeps me up at night
This is what I've been waiting for my whole life
Everything is right with the world
Everything is the way it's supposed to be
Everything is perfect
I'm a king, I'm a star
But this can't be real
I know it's not real
 well not yet
And before I snap back to reality
Let me raise a glass of champagne
Let me make a toast to the good life

Banji Coker 

Remembrance

The people I've met
The stories I've told
The memories I've made
The events I've created
Some I've forgotten
Some I've left behind
Some it's like they never existed
Some I can't put my hands on what happened
All for  the quest to move forward
All for the quest to create a better me
All for the quest to strive for happiness
All for the quest to be at peace with myself
My decisions might have be wrong
My decisions might have be right
But there is no time to go backwards
All I can do is reflex, try to remember

Banji Coker 

Iris

We have dreams
We have visions
We have things we want to believe
We have things we want to see
But it seems we are blinded by disappointments
Blinded by failures
Blinded by fears
Blinded by ourselves
I wish we could see the bigger picture
I wish we had a little peak into the future
And see that we are more
Iris messenger of the gods we need a little help here

Banji Coker 

Pearlescent rain

 "I love you"
Words that has been said a billion times
Words that doesn't seem to thoroughly explain this feeling
It's close,  but it's not there yet
The English language isn't that sophisticated
Your are a pour of pearlescent rain
Colouring my world and beautifying my life

Banji Coker 

Nostalgic memories

Back in the days when we were small
When everything looked big
When We weren't afraid to dream
When We weren't scared to explore
When We were kings
When We were queens
Of our own little Kingdom
Of our own little world
We had hearts of gold
Joy filled our soul
We were oblivious of the troubles of the world
Hate was far from us
We could become whatever we wanted to become
We were champions in our own little way
Then we grew up
Everything became smaller
Everything became harder
Life lost its beauty

Banji Coker 

Hesitation

What if I fail?
What if it doesn't work out?
What if I'm not good enough?
What if I'm not the one?
I'm not talented
I don't have enough skill
I don't look the part
I don't deserve this
This is my demise
I'm at the limbo stage
Self doubt is the reason for the hesitation
Which is Keeping me from achieving greatness

Banji Coker 

Africa

She is unhappy
She weeps in  sorrow
As she looks down on her children
She can't believe her eyes
After all her scars
After all her struggles
After all her values  
After all her teachings
To see her children deep in greed
To see hate flow through their veins
To see them oppress one another
To see them in poverty despite living in riches
This is the cause of her sadness
This is the cause of her heartbreak
This is the cause of her grieve
This is the cause of her lamenting
Her friends mock her
After all her suffering
To be a good mother
This is the fate of the woman called Africa

Banji Coker 

Song of the week

One call away by Charlie puth is the song of the week. The song is a cry out to a special person that he will always be there no matter the circumstances. I can totally relate with that, because that's the way I feel right now, i cant totally do anything for the one I love and will do what it takes to be there for her, I guess that's what love is about being able to share their fares, pains and disappointments together.
So baby girl I'm only one call, I'll be there to safe the day, superman got nothing on me, I'm only one call away.

Majestic melancholy

He stood at the edge of his castle
And looked down upon his Kingdom
all he saw was the pain
All he saw was anguish
All he saw was disappointment
All he saw was disaster
He stood at the top of his tower
Feeling sorry for himself
Feeling sorry for his Kingdom
He wept for their demise
Peasants walked passed pointing at him
They say to themselves "there is the majestic melancholy"
He is out of his chambers
Here to bless us with his sadness

Banji Coker 

Half moon

This is when I'm vulnerable
This is when I'm sober
This is when I'm weak
This is when I let my guards down
This is when the moon is half
This is when the sun is bright.
This is when the sky is blue
This is when the air is clean
But please don't getting carried away
Please don't advantage of me
Please this  is a warning
Please this is not  a plea
Cos when the moon is full
The monster comes out and it's set loose

Banji Coker 

Favourite sight

Felt that thick sweat dripping down my  skin
Felt that immense pressure building in my brain
Felt  that fire burning in my heart
All for me to survive
All for me to make ends meet
All for me to succeed
But I always seem to fail
I seem to can't get it right
I seem to have not have done enough
It kills my soul
It Brings down my spirit
It breaks my heart
But if I could see success just once in my life
Now that will be my favourite sight

Banji Coker 

Escape from the rules

The universal rule
An eye for and eye
A tooth for a tooth
 You Love yours
And hate others.
With that in mind life can't be that hard
Right?
But I've been known to escape the rules
Doing my things outside the books
So in this game of life I'm destined to loose
Because In this mechanic world,
There is no place for an anomaly
And cos  you are different there is no place for you!

Banji Coker 

Iridescent storm

"Don't trust me" she said
"I'm no good for you" she said
"I would break your heart" she said
"I don't believe in love" She said
"I hate commitment" she said
"No one can tie me down" she said
I know I'm intriguing she said
"No one can understands me" she said
"I'm a chameleon" she said
"I'm an iridescent storm" she said
"I'm  giving you a fair warning" she said
"Dont fall in love with me" She said
"I don't want to hurt you" she said
"I know how this ends" she said
"I'm just trying to help" she said
"But I can't help it"  he said

Banji Coker 

Cold nights

This is me looking at the stars feeling depressed
This is me feeling sorry for myself
This is me giving up on the world
This is me hitting rock bottom
This is me letting their words define me
This is me not believing in who I can be
This is me being miserable
This is me accepting defeat
I know I'm more that what I feel right now
I know there is more to what you see right now
I know I'm more than what they talk about
I know I'm destined for greatness
But first I'm gonna wallow in my sadness
Take this bottle of whiskey and drown in my sorrow
Dont worry about me
This is just one of my cold nights

Banji Coker 

Song of the week

So the song of the week is jilex afro lover, I love the slow rhythm of the song and how his voice jellied with the beat, and how he let the melody ride. But also I love it because my girlfriend sent it to me😉

Incense

She walks into the room
All eyes on her
They all drolling
Hovering around her like bees
They all just want a moment with her
They all just want a chance with her
They will kill for her smile
Die for her laugh
Will do anything for her love
But I have her heart
I breath her soul
I emit her spirit
She Walks into the room
With her eyes on me
I might sound corny
But my girl is smoking hot
She increases the temperature of the atmosphere
With her sweet savoring smell
Which I'm lucky to be blessed with
She the incense my soul is craving

Banji Coker 

Treasonous

She doesn't know what she wants
She never satisfied with what she has
She wants to eat her cake and have it
She uses people and adore things
She doesn't believe in love
She doesn't care about anyone
She breaks hearts for fun
She plays with feelings when she is bored
She has the face of an angel
She has a body of a goddess
Her sexy shape puts her on the top of the heartbreak chains.
She looks like the perfect girl
She is everything you wish for
She is in your every fantasy
But dont put your trust in her
Because she is treasonous

Banji Coker

How could one forget?

How could one forget?
The memories we made
The joy we had
The pains we shared
The laughters we created
How could one forget?
The way we felt for each other
The way we defended each other
The way we prayed together
How could one forget?
What it felt  like to have someone to depend on
What it felt like to be loved
What it felt like to be cared for
How could one forget?
Together we were amazing
Together we were strong
Together we were one
Oh how could one forget?

Banji Coker 

Hotel tombs

She is lost
She has given up
She has no one
And no one has her
Her soul is dead
Life has no meaning
This wasn't her dream
She didn’t plan for this
But to keep this body standing
She has to put it on its back
Inviting the low self esteem duchbags
To come have a feel of 5 minutes pride
This is the cycle of her life
During the day, a beautiful girl trying to find her place in the world
During the night,  a zombie going to the hotel with some bastard to visit her tomb

Banji Coker 

Supernova

God,  those eyes
Are like mirrors to my soul
Showing me a better me
Giving me a future of endless possibilities
that smile
Send shivers down my spine
Lifts up my spirit
The new reason for my existence
that voice
It's my melody
Send me to cloud 9
It's gives me ecstacy
What is this being?
She is an explosion of a million starts
Shines brighter than a billion suns
She's my supernova
She's my love

Banji Coker 

Brush fire

In the forest of love
Trees of emotions are grown
Leafs of passion are sprouting
Grasses of compassion everywhere
Oh the beauty of young love
Oh the fire of a new relationship
Where they can't take their eyes of each other
Where the only voice they hear is their half's voice
But there is a little brush fire
The little scare in their heart
The demons in their nightmare
The scary idea of losing each other

Banji Coker 

Back to the start

I wanna go back to the beginning
I wanna go back to the start
I wanna go back to the garden of Eden
I wanna go back to creation
Where I would be the only boy
And you the only girl
I want us to go back
Before all the hate
Before all the pain
Before all the greed
Before all the sin
And create love
Unconditional love

Banji Coker 

Silent confession

Thought that fill my brain
Emotions that fill my heart
Words that fill my mind
Are driving me crazy
I can't express it
It can't be defined
It's can't be explained
God I'm ashamed
Feeling this vulnerable
Feeling this helpless
Over a person
Over a human being
Over a girl
She as taken over my soul
She is control of my spirit
She possesses my entire being
This is my silent confession
I'm dangerously, madly and stupidly in love with this girl
And the thought of that is scary
But when I see her smile,
When i hear her voice
I wouldn't have it any other way

Banji Coker 

Sweet November

It's a miracle
It's magic
It's a fairly tale
It's my fantasy
It's a new day
It's a new month
It's a new season
It's a new beginning
Her smile lights up my world
Her voice grants me freedom
She is a  gift from the future
She is the beauty in my present
What a time to be alive
What a privilege to witness this moment
Oh how grateful i am oh sweet November
For this great beauty you Brought to  my life

Banji Coker 

Dripping comets

Two flaming souls came together in the freezing cold
 Both had different ideas of what the world should be
Both had different conception of love
Both had ego and pride
Both were selfish and self-centered
 Both came with their respective heat
None deciding to cool for the other
And instead of keeping each other warm
They set the whole place ablaze
And the only things that remained
Was dripping comets.

Banji Coker 

Day of dead

He stood there looking pale
Fear the owner of his soul
Words couldn't come out of his mouth
A rush of emotions he couldn't describe
Trouble is in the air
Death is around the corner
The demons are playing with his head
The devil welcomes him with a smile
Dying isn't scary
Wats scary is leaving behind every thing  that made his heart beat,
 This is the fear he faced
Leaving the earth without loving
Without feeling love
 without being fulfilled
Thoughts of regrets, on the day of dead.

Banji Coker

Watch out guys

I'm working on a new project I hope you guys love it🙈🙈🙈🙈😆😆😆😆.

Happy birthday ayomikun

Happy birthday to my baby brother, my mini me the guy that doesn't take no for an answer, who sees something that he wants and goes for it. The one with a cute voice and wonderful smile. Mommy's little angel.
I love you man. Get ready to take over the world. 

Song of the week

So I've not uploaded song of the week for the past few weeks that cos these past weeks I had had a rush of emotions which not just one song can describe, but the best that can describe it and also the one that my baby sent to me that describes what we have is Stanaj ain't love strange.

This song is just magical and beautiful, I literally have goose bumps every time it comes on maybe cos of the personal meaning I have towards it but I tell you this song is amazing 

All I wanna do

I don't know how, but I always find you in my dreams
Sometimes it makes it hard to believe that you are real
Your voice sends my soul ablaze,
with burning flames of passion
I wanna fucking love you
how wonderful it is that when I wake up you are still there
I wanna kiss you
I wanna have a taste of what makes you heart so beautiful
I wanna hold you
I wanna move my hand round every contour of this great work of art
I want to drive into your deep sea
And release every piece of life inside of me
Cos you are not just the love of my life,
You are my goddess, you are my saviour, you are my life

Banji Coker 

Self destruct

He sipped in the frustration of the world
Inhaling the negativity
Pain filled his fantasy
As he watched reality pass him by
His soul is covered with anger
His heart is made up of disappointment
All he see is hate
He feels neglected, he feels out of place
he brought out his rod,
After a few strokes
And a little mourn
He blew out his future
Sprouting it into the void
 life has done so much damages
That he doesn't mind self destruct

Banji Coker 

Infinite sadness

 I fell for the devil
Entangled In her web
 Dimming the light of my soul
Crushing my heart and killing my spirit
I was sentenced to an eternity of infinite sadness
All because I fell in love
Days and nights passed
Then the gods decided to take pity on my soul
An angel was sent to my rescue
Freeing me from the devil's Web
Lighting up my soul
Fixing my heart and lifting my spirit
I was free and allowed to walk into happiness,
This is what it feels like to be loved
She made me realise that being in love is not sin, its not a curse.

Banji Coker 

My angel

I stood on the edge of a cliff
I could hear the wind whisper to me
"Take a step forward,
walk away from the pain
Walk away from the misery
Walk away from the hate"
Then her smile flashed through my head
And everything became clear
I was ready to face the pain
I was ready to face the misery
I was ready to face the hate
I was ready to face the demons if this angel by my side
Cos her love is all that matters
Just like that my feet so began to take steps backwards.

Banji Coker 

Remember me

Met at a cross road
Created memories
Made history
Craved our names in the heart of those we loved.
I was a sinner
I was a saint
I was a lover
I was an heart breaker
I was loved
I was hated
I was respected
I was ridiculed
I was boring
I was fun
I was smart
I was dumb
All of this I was
All at the same time
So here is the question
What happens when death come ?
What would you remember about me ?
Or would you remember me at all?

Banji Coker